Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Ayreon - Age of Shadows / We Are Forever

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tIqRsl8Vm-Q

Ayreon was the first band that John introduced me to, the very first night we met.

I was listening to "Age of Shadows / We Are Forever" today with new ears.

Lyrics:
We never saw this coming
Pride comes before a fall
We never heeded the warnings
Buried deep within us all

Wow! It's true that I never saw this coming. When I met John, I felt so drawn to his pain. I wanted to be a light in his darkness. There were signs at the very beginning that I would get hurt, but I ignored them.

Lyrics:
The Age of Shadows has begun
Giant machines blot out our sun
Frozen minds becoming numb
The Age of Shadows has begun

A shadow has always hovered over our relationship. There have been many times we've both felt numb, but I've never felt as numb at any other time as I feel now.

Lyrics:
The Age of Shadows has begun
I won't accept what we've become
We stand to lose more than we've won
The Age of Shadows has begun

It's true. I won't accept what John and I have become. We do stand to lose more than we've won. I'm afraid of losing my very self.

Lyrics:
Our quenchless thirst for knowledge
Our urge to change and grow
Our need to expand the nation
Made us rise from the depths below

OMG! This thirst, this urge, this need to expand made me rise so high. I rose out of the depths of innocence and ignorance.

Lyrics:
No more aggression
No more initiative

John has a strongly aggressive / violent side to him. He also has a side that utterly lacks initiative.

Lyrics:
No more suppression
No more emotions

I used to suppress myself. John taught me how to let my emotions out.

Lyrics:
No more recession
No more of all the feelings we shared that made us who we really are

Lyrics:
No more possessions
No more euphoria

It feels like we don't have each other anymore. The euphoria of being home to each other is gone in the face of emptiness.

Lyrics:
No more obsessions
No more sensations

We used to obsess about each other. He was always in my mind. Ugh! He still is. He made me feel so much.

Lyrics:
No more depressions
No more of all the passions that shaped our hearts and made us who we are

John and the passion we shared has been the primary influence on who I am today.

Lyrics:
Time, but a passageway
The beginning of the end
An end that never was
Time, but a curve in space

We are Forever, eternal prisoners in time
We are Forever, caught in our cold inertia

Longing...hoping...waiting...for no one...

:,( Ouch!

Lyrics:
Forever we yearn, forever we learn
Forever we live a lie, forever slipping by and
Forever we flee, forever we will be
Forever is but a dream, forever is but a scream and
Forever we try, forever we die

The spell of love wore off
The zest for life not enough

Longing...hoping...waiting...for no one...

I've felt all of this, but I'm going to fight it. I'm going to fight to pull myself out of it and rise up like a phoenix from the purging flames.

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